I have been wishing there was some way I could know how my Mum would feel if she knew how I feel at the moment - how sorry I am for being such a (manipulated and abused) little git to her. I have a faith, as I've mentioned before, and I have been praying for weeks for some kind of experience or answer or even a dream (well, Joseph had them!) to let me know how she feels right now (because life goes on after death). Nothing was happening. I felt like I was in limbo.
And then Louise posted this.
I am so sorry for what you are feeling, I also feel those feelings often.
I am not only analienated mother, I was an alienated child as well.
It took me until I began going through it with my children to figure it all out.
My target parent is also in a better place without my having cleared things up before it was to late.
I know he looks down on me and forgives me as your Mum forgives you, it wasn't our fault.
Just as I forgive my children, it isn't their fault, how could I want for them to suffer grief for the way they treat me?
31 December 2007 01:07
Louise, you answered my prayer. I've read your blogs too and I've appreciated all your comments on mine but what you said really, really struck a chord with me. I know that this is how I'd feel if I were in my Mum's position, and I feel certain that this is how she would feel too. THANK YOU so much. It took me a few days to realise this. I was actually with my counsellor when it hit me. THANK YOU. You've set my mind at rest.